| I have in these past few days made a miraculous discovery, being gay is what I am not who I am. I am guilty of this I know but it annoys me when people make being gay the very center of their lives. To where everything and everyone is associated with being queer, I mean yeah occasionally it's funny to people to bust out with something like that but not all the time. I met someone recently who made this very real to me. Due to his circumstances he has to hide what he is from certain others but at the same time accepts and appreciates what he is. I know nothing will ever come of our encounter except a friendship, but getting close to him gave me a taste of how I want to be with someone. Very patient and kind. Note that he wasn't the ONLY reason for making me think this it just helped with what I have been contemplating for the past few days. I was watching a foreign film and yes it was a gay one. It was about this guy trying to keep his job so he came out of the closet, it was just a rouse because he really isn't gay. Well a guy on the movie was telling the other guy that don't try to act gay it turns out vulgar, do nothing and only the perception of you will change. I think it true, what if nobody knew I was gay, truthfully than out of nowhere I said I was, people would be like I thought he was walking funny or that from the way I looked at people that they knew I was. Odd how things work. Well enough of my ramblings.
-Brian M Jacob |
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| I feel lost and alone. I don't know what to do about anything anymore. |
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| Thanks to the hurricane 11 people will be living in my house for the next month at least. I miss my room but it's for a good cause. ASL club met today yay, I want treasurer so bad but yeah I might get it. Thats all for now. More later. |
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| Meh, school is school as usual. Anatomy isn't that bad, and I love French 2. But yeah me and my bitches (haha Alysse) are going out this weekend to have some fun and it will be great. But anyway not much else is going on with me so yeah.
-Brian |
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| I might as well post my schedule like everybody else:
1A.) S1 Front Office Bauer, A
1A.) S2 US Government Cooper, B
2A.) AP English 4 H Donehoo, R
3A.) Varsity Mixed Choir H Chappell, A
4A.) BCIS 1 Cain, S
1B.) Chemistry Robertson, N
2B.) French 2 Delaney, K
3B.) ROTC 4 Gray, A
4B.) Anatomy & Physiology H Knight, T |
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